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These Monstrous Deeds
How long can someone play the role of a monster before becoming a monster themselves?
That’s the question that’s haunted Travis Kenton - A.K.A. Nathan Roarke - for the last 8 years. He’s hanging onto his humanity by a thread, reading file after file of innocent people who have been stolen and sold into the sex trade before bed every night just to be able to sleep. It’s the only way he can live with himself during this underground operation. The knowledge that he’ll save thousands of victims one of these days is the reason he gave up his entire life, his entire identity, nearly a decade ago. It has to be worth it. All of this has to be worth it.
Then the operation’s integrity is compromised, the identity of his boss revealed, and his boss’s younger brother is captured by a slave trader for revenge. Now Travis will face his biggest test of his role as Nathan Roarke. He’ll have to buy and convincingly own Carter Beckett until his undercover operation is over and he can hand Carter safely back to his big brother.
How long can someone play the role of a monster before becoming a monster themselves?
Travis is about to find out.
*** Due to the nature of the plot, this book contains scenes that some might find triggering and/or disturbing, as well as explicit sex scenes between the main characters. I’ve included the warnings I feel are the most important, but not all could be covered without giving away too much of the novel.
*** This is book 1 in a 3 book series. This series DOES end in a HAPPY ENDING if you’re willing to stick around ***
That’s the question that’s haunted Travis Kenton - A.K.A. Nathan Roarke - for the last 8 years. He’s hanging onto his humanity by a thread, reading file after file of innocent people who have been stolen and sold into the sex trade before bed every night just to be able to sleep. It’s the only way he can live with himself during this underground operation. The knowledge that he’ll save thousands of victims one of these days is the reason he gave up his entire life, his entire identity, nearly a decade ago. It has to be worth it. All of this has to be worth it.
Then the operation’s integrity is compromised, the identity of his boss revealed, and his boss’s younger brother is captured by a slave trader for revenge. Now Travis will face his biggest test of his role as Nathan Roarke. He’ll have to buy and convincingly own Carter Beckett until his undercover operation is over and he can hand Carter safely back to his big brother.
How long can someone play the role of a monster before becoming a monster themselves?
Travis is about to find out.
*** Due to the nature of the plot, this book contains scenes that some might find triggering and/or disturbing, as well as explicit sex scenes between the main characters. I’ve included the warnings I feel are the most important, but not all could be covered without giving away too much of the novel.
*** This is book 1 in a 3 book series. This series DOES end in a HAPPY ENDING if you’re willing to stick around ***
338 pages, Kindle Edition
First published July 13, 2021
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November 25, 2022
dnf @ 62%. very repetitive and very underdeveloped, considering the hardcore themes of human trafficking, abuse, non-con, master/slave, etc. the whole plot is super flimsy and basically laughable. the fact that i know this book ends on a cliffhanger and there's two more books makes my head hurt. no thanks.
July 3, 2021
I only read this story until the end because I wanted to see how they would get the bad guys, to just found out it ends in a cliff and we will have a sequel.🤦♀️
Cutting to the chase what didn't work for me:
📌 I found the story one dimensional, too focused on the Master/slave dynamic without exploring other aspects.
📌The whole book presented only 3 parts outside that ☝ bubble.
1-The auction.
2-Todd Henley's visit.
3-A party to make contacts.
Save that 3 occasions, we have a description of a Master/slave routine. It felt too repetitive to me. Wake up, shower, kneel, crawl, warm Master's cock, eat, warm Master's cock in the office, go to bed. Wash, Rinse Repeat.
📌 Carter was too easily convinced that he was NOTHING, just a set of holes.
📌 I didn't buy the speed at which Master fell in love with Carter. Why did he fall for Carter? 🤔 They had nothing in common. Not even the kink, since it was non-consensual. The feelings Master developed towards Carter felt more like a Stockholm syndrome in reverse.🤷♀️
📌 And finally, I really dislike when authors use similar names when characters are interacting. Carter and Casey shared a chunk of heavy stuff when the story started and it was very distracting to follow what was happening to whom since we were not familiar with them yet.
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Someone grabs Carter from behind. He gasps, trying to remember how to fight. All he can think is that this is it. This is when he’s going to die.
But then his eyes focus, and his lungs recognize the air they’re getting, and the world tilts back to where it belongs, and Carter sees that it’s Casey who has him. The young man is running his hands over Carter’s skin, calming him. When Carter starts to sob, Casey pulls him in and holds him close. He lets Carter sob uncontrollably until he has nothing left inside himself. When they pull apart, he sees tears on Casey’s face as well. He thought maybe he’d feel better knowing Casey isn’t as unaffected as he pretends to be, but it feels even worse. Carter goes to sleep a while later, the thought in his mind that maybe it’d be nice if he doesn’t wake up again. But Carter does wake up.
** This book has lots of great reviews, you better ignore my thoughts and give this a go.
June 21, 2021
content warning for: rape, abuse, degradation, torture
This one fucked me up both my head and my emotions. A romance between a sex slave and the 'sir' who bought him. Ugh, saying its romance chills me. And lastly in the end, I can't believe I rooted for the monster. God, forgive me. This story gave me the greenlight to read more distrubing/dark romances. My body and soul are now ready. This review is sooo vague because this story gripped and shocked me and I hope the next readers will experience the same.
"He's a commodity. He's not human. He never will be again. It's starting to get easier to remember that. He should be terrified, but he's not. He's relieved."
This one fucked me up both my head and my emotions. A romance between a sex slave and the 'sir' who bought him. Ugh, saying its romance chills me. And lastly in the end, I can't believe I rooted for the monster. God, forgive me. This story gave me the greenlight to read more distrubing/dark romances. My body and soul are now ready. This review is sooo vague because this story gripped and shocked me and I hope the next readers will experience the same.
July 7, 2021
WARNING: THIS IS A TRILOGY!!!! I didn't know that when I started this. Fuck my life. 🥲
This was... I can't even begin to explain how fucked up this was, I mean is easy to imagine when you have an undercover agent trying to take down the human trafficking business... Said agent has to rescue his friend and colague's little brother of being sold. How is gonna do that? By buying him and making him his slave. Smartssss. 🤨🤨
Do I need to say more? At 30% of the book you know everything is fucked up and it will keep being fucked up because it's just a fucked up situation. And the guys are nice, like the one who was chosen to be the "capo" has a sweet heart and the guy's little brother is also sweet as hell. 🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️
And that's when I knew the content I was reading wasn't believable but I didn't care, still I'll share my points for reference:
- Nathan being chosen as the head of the operation, I don't get it, that guy is weak as hell. Getting distracted thanks to a boy in the middle of a discussion? WEAK!!
- WHO THE HELL THOUGHT THAT IT WAS A GOOD MOVE TO NOT TELL THE BOY THE TRUTH? WHO? They need a trophy for that brilliance! "Oh no, Carter doesn't know how to act, he won't be able to fake it, ñiñiñiñi!" Ya think that in the situation the boy is in he won't do it? He ain't stupid!! Now he's got a Jekyll and Hyde shit going and that's on you FBI!
- The story focused a lot on those two, for a organization that deals with trafficking all day Nathan had a lot of time to fuck. 🤷🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️
- Carter was also really ridiculous! You are in a situation were u need to be more smart and alert my friend, all he does is cry and say he's sorry. Don't get me wrong a meltdown is spected, but he just does that. Where is your survival mode?
- Also Carter, tell Natahn to go fuck himself thank you very much! 🤨
Did I mind? No I didn't, I enjoyed it, I was hypnotized, I couldn't put it down, I rolled my eyes while also clutching my pearls!
So yeah. I NEED BOOK TWO NOW! 😑😑
This was... I can't even begin to explain how fucked up this was, I mean is easy to imagine when you have an undercover agent trying to take down the human trafficking business... Said agent has to rescue his friend and colague's little brother of being sold. How is gonna do that? By buying him and making him his slave. Smartssss. 🤨🤨
Do I need to say more? At 30% of the book you know everything is fucked up and it will keep being fucked up because it's just a fucked up situation. And the guys are nice, like the one who was chosen to be the "capo" has a sweet heart and the guy's little brother is also sweet as hell. 🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️
And that's when I knew the content I was reading wasn't believable but I didn't care, still I'll share my points for reference:
- Nathan being chosen as the head of the operation, I don't get it, that guy is weak as hell. Getting distracted thanks to a boy in the middle of a discussion? WEAK!!
- WHO THE HELL THOUGHT THAT IT WAS A GOOD MOVE TO NOT TELL THE BOY THE TRUTH? WHO? They need a trophy for that brilliance! "Oh no, Carter doesn't know how to act, he won't be able to fake it, ñiñiñiñi!" Ya think that in the situation the boy is in he won't do it? He ain't stupid!! Now he's got a Jekyll and Hyde shit going and that's on you FBI!
- The story focused a lot on those two, for a organization that deals with trafficking all day Nathan had a lot of time to fuck. 🤷🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️
- Carter was also really ridiculous! You are in a situation were u need to be more smart and alert my friend, all he does is cry and say he's sorry. Don't get me wrong a meltdown is spected, but he just does that. Where is your survival mode?
- Also Carter, tell Natahn to go fuck himself thank you very much! 🤨
Did I mind? No I didn't, I enjoyed it, I was hypnotized, I couldn't put it down, I rolled my eyes while also clutching my pearls!
So yeah. I NEED BOOK TWO NOW! 😑😑
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
September 6, 2021
4.2
”gut-wrenching”
stars
tw: rape/sexual assault, sex trafficking/slavery, physical violence, degradation, psychological torture, suicidal ideation
He just loves this version of sir so much. The version who cares. The version that’s almost…human.
The smile slips away when he realizes how dangerous it is for him to enjoy this version of the monster. This version isn’t real. It’s only a matter of time before Carter gets hurt again.
Sir isn’t human.
Neither is Carter.
It’s best he remembers that.
These Monstrous Deeds is one of the darkest, most haunting books I’ve ever read. The trigger warnings should really be heeded. Unimaginable brutality and the worst aspects of human nature are depicted. But there also moments of tenderness and glimpses of joy to leaven the sheer ugliness. Nathan and Carter’s relationship gives new meaning to the term dark romance, but I question whether the term romance is correct. We have two people in forced proximity in a twisted world. They are the only sources of kindness and light in this world; how could they not be drawn to each other?
Travis Kenton: Travis Kenton, aka, Nathan Roarke, is an agent in a secret government operation tasked with bringing down an international trafficking ring. He’s assumed an undercover identity as Nathan Roarke—a wealthy, ruthless, human trafficking kingpin. He’s been operating under this identity for eight years and it’s taken a heavy toll on him. He fears that he’s lost Travis and his humanity in the process. His greatest fear is that he’s become a monster. But you see the continuous battle being waged internally between Travis and Nathan.
Carter Beckett: Carter is a twenty-two-year-old college student and the brother of Nathan’s best friend, Maison. Maison is also the commander of the secret operation to bring down the trafficking ring. Carter is kidnapped by a group of human traffickers once Maison’s identity is blown. The traffickers put Carter up for sale in a slave auction as payback for the operation. Nathan is tasked with buying Carter and becoming his owner. Carter is an intelligent character and brave. Although he is raped, abused and traumatized, he manages to maintain a positive spirit throughout everything.
Highlights
The characterization is stunning and both main characters really come to life. Carter leaps off the page. You can vividly picture his private hell every step of the way—first as a kidnap victim and then as a sex slave. Plucky and incredibly resilient, he also has a refreshing air of innocence about him. And he doesn’t lose his humanity or ability to laugh despite his circumstances.
“Carter doesn’t know if he can survive years.
But Carter doesn’t want to die.
He’s too young to die.
There are so many things left to do. So much left for him to learn and see.
He’s not finished.”
The inner conflict between Travis/Nathan is monumental. Travis’s toughest test occurs when he becomes Carter’s master. He is forced to rape and punish Carter in front of other people in order to stay in character with his Nathan persona. He hates himself for getting aroused when he rapes Carter and feels destined for hell. And he still feels guilty even when Carter consents to sex and enjoys it given their master/slave dynamic. He is tormented and being Nathan almost breaks him.
“Nathan hurries to turn back to Carter, squeezing his eyes shut. He focuses on the feel of his expensive suit wrapped around his body. The weight of the jacket. The silky material of his dress shirt. The cinch of his ties. The fabric that cups his ass. The buttery soft leather shoes that are perfectly molded to his feet. The cool metal of his watch.
His suit.
His armor.
His costume.
Travis isn’t here right now. Travis no longer exists. It’s just Nathan Roarke. Ruthless. Evil. Monster.”
The only way I could read this book was by creating emotional distance with Carter. I wondered why Nathan’s character stuck with me more and why I identified more strongly with him—the hero who did such monstrous things. And then I realized that I couldn’t allow myself to identify with Carter because being Carter is too scary. I didn’t want to and couldn’t afford to be in that mental space. He has so many atrocities committed on his body and undergoes such psychological torture. The only way I could stomach reading this was at an emotional remove from Carter. That is how painful his world is.
“Carter was prepared to live this new existence. He was prepared for this to be his world.
Then sir gave him to Todd.
Sir let Todd abuse him.
Sir used another slave.
Sir proved that Carter isn’t special.
Nothing makes sense anymore.
Nothing feels even slightly okay.”
At first, I found it a bit unrealistic/improbable for Nathan to fall in love with Carter. I could see Carter falling in love given how Stockholm syndrome works. But the rationale didn’t seem as clear cut with Nathan initially. However, the more I thought about it, the more it made sense. Nathan has had to don the mask of a monster for eight years during which time he’s been starved for affection, decency, and kindness. And then Carter walks in, who represents all these qualities. Carter is also vulnerable and completely dependent on him and arouses all his protective and possessive instincts. He also arouses lust and a sense of tenderness in him. And Nathan can’t stop fantasizing about what things would be like if they had met under normal circumstances.
Quibble
My major quibble is a long dream sequence (thirteen pages) that Carter has. Carter has a nightmare that captures his internal conflict between compromises he has to make to survive as a sex slave, while fighting not to lose his identity. He fears that he has become complicit and too comfortable with his situation. He is falling in love with his master, Nathan. Carter questions whether he has lost his desire to escape. The dream is repetitive and keeps revisiting this conflict between giving in to sir/Nathan versus fighting to escape. You could easily cut eight pages from the dream without losing its essence.
tw: rape/sexual assault, sex trafficking/slavery, physical violence, degradation, psychological torture, suicidal ideation
He just loves this version of sir so much. The version who cares. The version that’s almost…human.
The smile slips away when he realizes how dangerous it is for him to enjoy this version of the monster. This version isn’t real. It’s only a matter of time before Carter gets hurt again.
Sir isn’t human.
Neither is Carter.
It’s best he remembers that.
These Monstrous Deeds is one of the darkest, most haunting books I’ve ever read. The trigger warnings should really be heeded. Unimaginable brutality and the worst aspects of human nature are depicted. But there also moments of tenderness and glimpses of joy to leaven the sheer ugliness. Nathan and Carter’s relationship gives new meaning to the term dark romance, but I question whether the term romance is correct. We have two people in forced proximity in a twisted world. They are the only sources of kindness and light in this world; how could they not be drawn to each other?
Travis Kenton: Travis Kenton, aka, Nathan Roarke, is an agent in a secret government operation tasked with bringing down an international trafficking ring. He’s assumed an undercover identity as Nathan Roarke—a wealthy, ruthless, human trafficking kingpin. He’s been operating under this identity for eight years and it’s taken a heavy toll on him. He fears that he’s lost Travis and his humanity in the process. His greatest fear is that he’s become a monster. But you see the continuous battle being waged internally between Travis and Nathan.
Carter Beckett: Carter is a twenty-two-year-old college student and the brother of Nathan’s best friend, Maison. Maison is also the commander of the secret operation to bring down the trafficking ring. Carter is kidnapped by a group of human traffickers once Maison’s identity is blown. The traffickers put Carter up for sale in a slave auction as payback for the operation. Nathan is tasked with buying Carter and becoming his owner. Carter is an intelligent character and brave. Although he is raped, abused and traumatized, he manages to maintain a positive spirit throughout everything.
Highlights
The characterization is stunning and both main characters really come to life. Carter leaps off the page. You can vividly picture his private hell every step of the way—first as a kidnap victim and then as a sex slave. Plucky and incredibly resilient, he also has a refreshing air of innocence about him. And he doesn’t lose his humanity or ability to laugh despite his circumstances.
“Carter doesn’t know if he can survive years.
But Carter doesn’t want to die.
He’s too young to die.
There are so many things left to do. So much left for him to learn and see.
He’s not finished.”
The inner conflict between Travis/Nathan is monumental. Travis’s toughest test occurs when he becomes Carter’s master. He is forced to rape and punish Carter in front of other people in order to stay in character with his Nathan persona. He hates himself for getting aroused when he rapes Carter and feels destined for hell. And he still feels guilty even when Carter consents to sex and enjoys it given their master/slave dynamic. He is tormented and being Nathan almost breaks him.
“Nathan hurries to turn back to Carter, squeezing his eyes shut. He focuses on the feel of his expensive suit wrapped around his body. The weight of the jacket. The silky material of his dress shirt. The cinch of his ties. The fabric that cups his ass. The buttery soft leather shoes that are perfectly molded to his feet. The cool metal of his watch.
His suit.
His armor.
His costume.
Travis isn’t here right now. Travis no longer exists. It’s just Nathan Roarke. Ruthless. Evil. Monster.”
The only way I could read this book was by creating emotional distance with Carter. I wondered why Nathan’s character stuck with me more and why I identified more strongly with him—the hero who did such monstrous things. And then I realized that I couldn’t allow myself to identify with Carter because being Carter is too scary. I didn’t want to and couldn’t afford to be in that mental space. He has so many atrocities committed on his body and undergoes such psychological torture. The only way I could stomach reading this was at an emotional remove from Carter. That is how painful his world is.
“Carter was prepared to live this new existence. He was prepared for this to be his world.
Then sir gave him to Todd.
Sir let Todd abuse him.
Sir used another slave.
Sir proved that Carter isn’t special.
Nothing makes sense anymore.
Nothing feels even slightly okay.”
At first, I found it a bit unrealistic/improbable for Nathan to fall in love with Carter. I could see Carter falling in love given how Stockholm syndrome works. But the rationale didn’t seem as clear cut with Nathan initially. However, the more I thought about it, the more it made sense. Nathan has had to don the mask of a monster for eight years during which time he’s been starved for affection, decency, and kindness. And then Carter walks in, who represents all these qualities. Carter is also vulnerable and completely dependent on him and arouses all his protective and possessive instincts. He also arouses lust and a sense of tenderness in him. And Nathan can’t stop fantasizing about what things would be like if they had met under normal circumstances.
Quibble
My major quibble is a long dream sequence (thirteen pages) that Carter has. Carter has a nightmare that captures his internal conflict between compromises he has to make to survive as a sex slave, while fighting not to lose his identity. He fears that he has become complicit and too comfortable with his situation. He is falling in love with his master, Nathan. Carter questions whether he has lost his desire to escape. The dream is repetitive and keeps revisiting this conflict between giving in to sir/Nathan versus fighting to escape. You could easily cut eight pages from the dream without losing its essence.
July 27, 2024
3ish stars. I enjoyed the premise, but the execution, repetition, and editing issues decreased my rating. Full RTC, add it to the big review later pile!
June 22, 2021
This is a hauntingly beautiful book about two people who are sucked into the world of sexual slavery. The only difference is that one of them is the victim and another is his tormentor. It's soul-crushing but so well written and filled with vivid images that you will be immersed in this dark world even before you realize it.
Note- Even with the risk of sounding like a scout leader, I would say
• Please read the TW because this book has humiliation, degradation, abuse ( not all are sexual), human trafficking, rape and it is really ( like really) a dark romance.
• I literally cried 3-5 times and, mind you it's quite a rare thing for me.
•I would also like to thank @Cal because otherwise, I would have certainly missed reading this book.😇😇
Note- Even with the risk of sounding like a scout leader, I would say
• Please read the TW because this book has humiliation, degradation, abuse ( not all are sexual), human trafficking, rape and it is really ( like really) a dark romance.
• I literally cried 3-5 times and, mind you it's quite a rare thing for me.
•I would also like to thank @Cal because otherwise, I would have certainly missed reading this book.😇😇
March 30, 2023
5++++++ BRUTAL RAW STARS STORY!
On to book 2!
On to book 2!
July 19, 2021
This was like a car crash of a book I just couldn't stop reading even though it was so incredibly bad. I normally don't waste time on stories I am this annoyed by but something just kept me going to the last page and now I'm almost mad I finished it.
Everything about this does not work. The premise is laughably flimsy. There was zero effort or time spent on making the supposed trafficking organisation believable. The whole organisation has no structure that I can detect, the supposed organisation Nathan works for is never named let alone do we find out who finances it or which government they are operating for this internationally.
And what super rich, super violent criminal lives in what seems to essentially be a frat house where he has to basically play a role in front of his own men all the time. None, that's who. Which is why the whole plot idea makes no sense from the get-go. Let's not even really dive into the idea that the boys' brother would honestly willingly let him stay in the role as sex slave for one second longer than necessary when Nathan gets his hands on him.
And of course they have to fall in love during their whole ordeal because what love story doesn't flourish while one partner repeatedly rapes the other in front of an audience?
This could have been filthy, dark fun. Instead it's an insulting mess
Everything about this does not work. The premise is laughably flimsy. There was zero effort or time spent on making the supposed trafficking organisation believable. The whole organisation has no structure that I can detect, the supposed organisation Nathan works for is never named let alone do we find out who finances it or which government they are operating for this internationally.
And what super rich, super violent criminal lives in what seems to essentially be a frat house where he has to basically play a role in front of his own men all the time. None, that's who. Which is why the whole plot idea makes no sense from the get-go. Let's not even really dive into the idea that the boys' brother would honestly willingly let him stay in the role as sex slave for one second longer than necessary when Nathan gets his hands on him.
And of course they have to fall in love during their whole ordeal because what love story doesn't flourish while one partner repeatedly rapes the other in front of an audience?
This could have been filthy, dark fun. Instead it's an insulting mess
July 2, 2024
4.5 stars.
So I'm reading this after finishing the Veterans Of Callenburg Series (which was 5 stars, btw). This was a really engrossing read that I couldn't put down.
This was a lot darker as it takes place within the actual underground human trafficking world with masters and their human slaves.
At times, it is pretty graphic and distressing, but that's to be expected if you're going to read a book like this. This book is not kinky CNC stuff (although at times the MCs do try this out but consent is still iffy given the context). It has moments of graphic scenes depicting the HT underground world of rape, abuse, torture, degradation and deprivation, etc. So please make sure you're across the TWs.
In this environment, a master, Nathan, who is really an undercover cop, is super close to shutting it all down at great personal cost. He falls for his slave, Carter (who doesn't know), but still has to play the part and lines get really fucked up and blurry. The moments between Nathan and Carter when they are able to take off their master and slave personas provides some sweetness and respite from the despair faced by the MCs in this environment.
The author made some writing and plot choices (not gonna spoil) that I'm still getting my head around / making up my mind about, and I'm open to seeing how it all fits together as part of a three book series. I'll probably write a series review at the end.
This one ends of a pretty decent cliffhanger, and HFN doesn't really apply to a story like this, so I'm off to start the next one, A Dangerous Game rn because I need to know how this all ends.
So I'm reading this after finishing the Veterans Of Callenburg Series (which was 5 stars, btw). This was a really engrossing read that I couldn't put down.
This was a lot darker as it takes place within the actual underground human trafficking world with masters and their human slaves.
At times, it is pretty graphic and distressing, but that's to be expected if you're going to read a book like this. This book is not kinky CNC stuff (although at times the MCs do try this out but consent is still iffy given the context). It has moments of graphic scenes depicting the HT underground world of rape, abuse, torture, degradation and deprivation, etc. So please make sure you're across the TWs.
In this environment, a master, Nathan, who is really an undercover cop, is super close to shutting it all down at great personal cost. He falls for his slave, Carter (who doesn't know), but still has to play the part and lines get really fucked up and blurry. The moments between Nathan and Carter when they are able to take off their master and slave personas provides some sweetness and respite from the despair faced by the MCs in this environment.
The author made some writing and plot choices (not gonna spoil) that I'm still getting my head around / making up my mind about, and I'm open to seeing how it all fits together as part of a three book series. I'll probably write a series review at the end.
This one ends of a pretty decent cliffhanger, and HFN doesn't really apply to a story like this, so I'm off to start the next one, A Dangerous Game rn because I need to know how this all ends.
May 13, 2024
The most *fucked* book I’ve ever read. God what the fuck. Going straight to book 2 I guess lol.
June 20, 2021
This book was devastating but I was engrossed throughout. Sex trafficking books are usually too dark me, but the author's writing made it so engaging! I loved the emotions, the intensity, the imperfect characters. This does end in a cliffhanger but the author promises a happy ending. So I will impatiently wait for the next book!
June 23, 2021
Read this author’s trigger warnings! This book is profoundly dark and deals with some of the most disturbing material I’ve read. The author does a good job disclosing this and the book shouldn’t be judged based on someone not being prepared.
This is a book about sex slavery. Everything is nonconsensual even when it’s “consensual.” There’s some Stockholm syndrome going on here and the level of mindfuckery is intense. You can’t possibly hate the person you should hate because this author makes you feel like he has no other option. He’s actually a hero and he’s absolutely torn by his actions. I felt bad for a rapist. That’s some good storytelling. I also felt uncomfortable for a lot of this book and hated how much I liked it. And I really liked it at times.
I wavered between 3 and 4 stars for pretty much one reason: the “consensual” sex bothered me. It was incredibly tame in comparison to everything else going on, but it just felt wrong for the situation. We’ve got two emotionally fragile MCs and that’s the kind of sex the author chooses to have them connect? I didn’t like it. I actually enjoyed the sex between Carter and Sir better, which really fucked with my head. I felt like Carter needed something else, especially after his evening with Henley. And Nathan felt like an abusive monster but does that to Carter? Nah. Not feeling it. Honestly, it was more the language used beforehand than the actual act and it gave me anxiety anticipating what would happen. Couldn’t actually imagine Carter being okay with it. If it was just that one scene I probably could have let it go and given 4 stars, but it happened...kind of...near the end and reminded me how much that dynamic bothered me.
That being said, I could really see how this could be a 4 star book for a lot of people. It was fascinating. I had trouble putting it down and I really wanted to know where it was going. How is this going to be a trilogy? I’m so stressed thinking about that. How can our MCs possibly have a happy ending?! I will 100% be reading the next book.
This is a book about sex slavery. Everything is nonconsensual even when it’s “consensual.” There’s some Stockholm syndrome going on here and the level of mindfuckery is intense. You can’t possibly hate the person you should hate because this author makes you feel like he has no other option. He’s actually a hero and he’s absolutely torn by his actions. I felt bad for a rapist. That’s some good storytelling. I also felt uncomfortable for a lot of this book and hated how much I liked it. And I really liked it at times.
I wavered between 3 and 4 stars for pretty much one reason: the “consensual” sex bothered me. It was incredibly tame in comparison to everything else going on, but it just felt wrong for the situation. We’ve got two emotionally fragile MCs and that’s the kind of sex the author chooses to have them connect? I didn’t like it. I actually enjoyed the sex between Carter and Sir better, which really fucked with my head. I felt like Carter needed something else, especially after his evening with Henley. And Nathan felt like an abusive monster but does that to Carter? Nah. Not feeling it. Honestly, it was more the language used beforehand than the actual act and it gave me anxiety anticipating what would happen. Couldn’t actually imagine Carter being okay with it. If it was just that one scene I probably could have let it go and given 4 stars, but it happened...kind of...near the end and reminded me how much that dynamic bothered me.
That being said, I could really see how this could be a 4 star book for a lot of people. It was fascinating. I had trouble putting it down and I really wanted to know where it was going. How is this going to be a trilogy? I’m so stressed thinking about that. How can our MCs possibly have a happy ending?! I will 100% be reading the next book.
August 27, 2023
I expected more from a story with so many triggers.
But, even with the extreme setting of the book, all of what Carter had to endure... I just couldn't get past the insta-love. They both fell in love with the other in mere days. And yes I know this is fiction but there is a limit to when we can use that as an excuse and a book where the MCs is a sex trafficker and his slave... that doesn't work. Sorry. I can't let that go. It was jarring.
As was all the sweethearts and good boys that were said in the book. It was too much
The whole book could have been cut in half. So repetitive. Most of it was Carter crying and apologizing while Nathan said sweetheart and good boy and apologizing himself
I honestly wanted to DNF multiple times but kept at it
I think with a bit of tweaking this book could be so much better. I will continue book one to see where this might go though.
But, even with the extreme setting of the book, all of what Carter had to endure... I just couldn't get past the insta-love. They both fell in love with the other in mere days. And yes I know this is fiction but there is a limit to when we can use that as an excuse and a book where the MCs is a sex trafficker and his slave... that doesn't work. Sorry. I can't let that go. It was jarring.
As was all the sweethearts and good boys that were said in the book. It was too much
The whole book could have been cut in half. So repetitive. Most of it was Carter crying and apologizing while Nathan said sweetheart and good boy and apologizing himself
I honestly wanted to DNF multiple times but kept at it
I think with a bit of tweaking this book could be so much better. I will continue book one to see where this might go though.
July 30, 2024
Ok, so I waited until I had read all three books before writing any reviews because I just NEEDED to know what the outcome of this story was! I read all three within 24 hours 😂 BUT I do have mixed opinions.
What I struggled with was these books being written in 3rd person POV. I hate it. It detaches me from the emotion of the story and it's like the equivalent of watching the news on TV - yes it's horrific and harrowing and upsetting, but because I'm not directly experiencing it and instead I'm hearing it 'second hand' rather than from the source, I really struggle to get emotionally invested no matter how devastating the plot is. If this had been first person I guarantee I would have solidly 5 starred every book in the series because I would not have been able to control my emotional response.
I liked how the complexity of the relationship between Carter and Nathan was handled - it did feel believable and definitely Stockholm Syndrome-esque. I did struggle to be ok with what was happening though, and maybe that 3rd person POV detachment did actually help by not immersing me in the trauma alongside Carter...who knows! I just empathised with Carter so much when he found out what was happening to him, and his devastation and reactions were more than justified, but at the same time I understand why everything was done the way it was now that I've read them all. I also liked how it was made clear that this was a deep cover operation with a lot of grey/black areas, and not just a standard romance, because if Carter had just outright idolised Nathan and worshipped the ground he walked on then I would not have been interested in finding out what happens to everyone.
All I do know is that once I finally got into the story (around the 50% mark) I just needed to know EVERYTHING. I told myself I was going to read a lighter book between each of these books but I couldn't stop myself from just ploughing through them!
What I struggled with was these books being written in 3rd person POV. I hate it. It detaches me from the emotion of the story and it's like the equivalent of watching the news on TV - yes it's horrific and harrowing and upsetting, but because I'm not directly experiencing it and instead I'm hearing it 'second hand' rather than from the source, I really struggle to get emotionally invested no matter how devastating the plot is. If this had been first person I guarantee I would have solidly 5 starred every book in the series because I would not have been able to control my emotional response.
I liked how the complexity of the relationship between Carter and Nathan was handled - it did feel believable and definitely Stockholm Syndrome-esque. I did struggle to be ok with what was happening though, and maybe that 3rd person POV detachment did actually help by not immersing me in the trauma alongside Carter...who knows! I just empathised with Carter so much when he found out what was happening to him, and his devastation and reactions were more than justified, but at the same time I understand why everything was done the way it was now that I've read them all. I also liked how it was made clear that this was a deep cover operation with a lot of grey/black areas, and not just a standard romance, because if Carter had just outright idolised Nathan and worshipped the ground he walked on then I would not have been interested in finding out what happens to everyone.
All I do know is that once I finally got into the story (around the 50% mark) I just needed to know EVERYTHING. I told myself I was going to read a lighter book between each of these books but I couldn't stop myself from just ploughing through them!
May 25, 2023
3.75 stars
July 15, 2023
5⭐️ Most intensely emotional book I’ve ever read.
The intensity just never lets up and I lost count of how many times I cried. The author just whips you back and forth between anxiety, revulsion, and sweet tenderness and hot lust. I don’t know how she managed to make such a dark story sweetly romantic but she succeeded.
It’s genius how she slowly warms you up to the depravity so that you don’t even realize you’re in a vat of boiling hot brutality… but cannot stop reading.
Carter is a 22 yr old student, kidnapped and sold into sex slavery by a sadistic group of human traffickers.
Nathan is a major kingpin in the sex slave trade. But he’s also an undercover agent for an elite government agency trying to dismantle the trade! And Carter just happens to be another agent’s little brother. He has no choice but to buy Carter as his personal sex slave in order to save him, but he has to make it look realistic— public rape, degradation, torture, and domination for weeks/months on end and Carter cannot know who he truly is. And OMG, Nathan LOATHES himself for it. Nathan, a sweet man at his core, has made himself into a monster and you truly feel for him.
The story is told in dual POV so you get both sides of these broken, traumatized men.
As difficult as this was to read, it was expertly written and I absolutely loved it. A top read of the year for sure.
It ends in a cliffhanger and I am jumping into book 2 immediately.
“This is the confusing man who buys sex slaves but treats them kindly. This is the sad boy so starved for touch he just might beg the man for more of it.”
“Dipping sauce? Did his rapist just ask him if he’d like dipping sauce with his chicken nuggets from fucking McDonalds?”
“When is a monster not a monster?
Oh, when you love it.”
The intensity just never lets up and I lost count of how many times I cried. The author just whips you back and forth between anxiety, revulsion, and sweet tenderness and hot lust. I don’t know how she managed to make such a dark story sweetly romantic but she succeeded.
It’s genius how she slowly warms you up to the depravity so that you don’t even realize you’re in a vat of boiling hot brutality… but cannot stop reading.
Carter is a 22 yr old student, kidnapped and sold into sex slavery by a sadistic group of human traffickers.
Nathan is a major kingpin in the sex slave trade. But he’s also an undercover agent for an elite government agency trying to dismantle the trade! And Carter just happens to be another agent’s little brother. He has no choice but to buy Carter as his personal sex slave in order to save him, but he has to make it look realistic— public rape, degradation, torture, and domination for weeks/months on end and Carter cannot know who he truly is. And OMG, Nathan LOATHES himself for it. Nathan, a sweet man at his core, has made himself into a monster and you truly feel for him.
The story is told in dual POV so you get both sides of these broken, traumatized men.
As difficult as this was to read, it was expertly written and I absolutely loved it. A top read of the year for sure.
It ends in a cliffhanger and I am jumping into book 2 immediately.
“This is the confusing man who buys sex slaves but treats them kindly. This is the sad boy so starved for touch he just might beg the man for more of it.”
“Dipping sauce? Did his rapist just ask him if he’d like dipping sauce with his chicken nuggets from fucking McDonalds?”
“When is a monster not a monster?
Oh, when you love it.”
July 19, 2023
I'm not quite sure what to even write. This was so very upsetting and emotional the entire time. It was relentless in the drama, fear, torture, assult, degredation - it was DARK. Dark. Dark. But we have these two beautifully human and lost souls that I instantly connected with on a very deep level. There was softness, passion and vulnerability but, boy howdy, do you have to go through it for those times!!!
Check the TWs with this one - if on page assault (repeatedly) is an issue, this isn't for you. It is gruesome and very graphic. It is also present throughout the book. It never gets easier - really just worse, honestly. BUT if you like it dark and you're less sensitive to such things, this book is absolutely incredible!!
I really appreciated that we didn't have to wait to know who was who and why certain people were doing certain things. In some ways, it made it worse because you knew there was no real alternative. It was very much punishing one to save many - and it hurt. There were times it hurt like hell. I cried - a lot!!! The most simple acts were so touching and soul shattering.
The way that both Nathan and Carter needed to be protected and saved felt necessary and yet insufficient at the same time. There were extremely bad people in this book - depths of depravity bad guys. And poor Carter was kept from knowing anything. He was a true victim. Nathan's story was much more complex and equally heartbreaking in many ways. Neither knew any peace with the exception of fleeting moments together - when they could almost silence the world around but there was always an uncurrent of unease.
I am not ok! I need to know what happens so I'm diving into book 2 immediately!
Check the TWs with this one - if on page assault (repeatedly) is an issue, this isn't for you. It is gruesome and very graphic. It is also present throughout the book. It never gets easier - really just worse, honestly. BUT if you like it dark and you're less sensitive to such things, this book is absolutely incredible!!
I really appreciated that we didn't have to wait to know who was who and why certain people were doing certain things. In some ways, it made it worse because you knew there was no real alternative. It was very much punishing one to save many - and it hurt. There were times it hurt like hell. I cried - a lot!!! The most simple acts were so touching and soul shattering.
The way that both Nathan and Carter needed to be protected and saved felt necessary and yet insufficient at the same time. There were extremely bad people in this book - depths of depravity bad guys. And poor Carter was kept from knowing anything. He was a true victim. Nathan's story was much more complex and equally heartbreaking in many ways. Neither knew any peace with the exception of fleeting moments together - when they could almost silence the world around but there was always an uncurrent of unease.
I am not ok! I need to know what happens so I'm diving into book 2 immediately!
July 9, 2023
Phew, dark, super dark, heartbreaking trauma, self-loathing, intense topics, deplorable lack of morality, reads more like erotica than a romance novel so be ready for anything, even non-con. This story jumps right into the sad, tragic story of the underground pleasure slave business as well as the harsh realities and sacrifice of undercover work. Emotionally charged as we see the main characters struggle with their roles in the saga, we’re in on the layers to the plot right from the start, which actually makes it more heartbreaking as we see certain actions and decision play out. Really well written, not for those with easily bruised souls.
With all dark literature, mind the trigger warnings as there are some on-page items that some may need to be forewarned about. Fans of “The Kidnapping of Roan Sinclair” will enjoy this book as it has a similar vibe.
I honestly struggle with books like this, I went in blind and had no idea how brutal this book was. I know we often need a character to be “low” so we can get to that gloriously lovely “high”, but oomph, this is beyond low and at the hands of the guy who will likely be the love interest later on? Yikes. Like I said, the struggle is real. Ultimately, this book grabbed my attention from page one and now I need to see what happens, I need to see how we get out of this situation, how we handle the healing, will there be forgiveness and how can there possibly be anything left of Nathan/Travis and Carter when all is said and done.
With all dark literature, mind the trigger warnings as there are some on-page items that some may need to be forewarned about. Fans of “The Kidnapping of Roan Sinclair” will enjoy this book as it has a similar vibe.
I honestly struggle with books like this, I went in blind and had no idea how brutal this book was. I know we often need a character to be “low” so we can get to that gloriously lovely “high”, but oomph, this is beyond low and at the hands of the guy who will likely be the love interest later on? Yikes. Like I said, the struggle is real. Ultimately, this book grabbed my attention from page one and now I need to see what happens, I need to see how we get out of this situation, how we handle the healing, will there be forgiveness and how can there possibly be anything left of Nathan/Travis and Carter when all is said and done.
July 29, 2021
This book started out with some great potential. Gritty Wrongness with a morally conflicted main character? Sign me up.
Unfortunately, the book lost itself along the way. I felt like it stalled out in the Master/slave phase for far too long, while neglecting any background plot. The set up of having Nate undercover, trying to bring down the whole trafficking ring is such a good plot, and I would have liked to see more of that intertwined with the Carter scenes. Instead, it felt like they were bookends - the book starts with the traffickers because Carter needs to get bought, and then ends with the next little bit of forward plot movement, with only a little segment (Henley) in the middle. The Master/slave parts didn't really advance much either - it felt repetitive over time. I also thought it was interesting how Nate tries to be kind to Carter in private but then that kind of just ends up being an extra mindfuck for him.
I can get behind Carter and Stockholm syndrome love, but I have no idea why Nate thinks he's in love with Carter. The best I can do is that he sees Carter as like a life raft/wholesome/keeps him out of the darkness etc. (That was never indicated in the book, it's just my thought.)
I also felt that Nate went a bit into TSTL territory over Carter. He's been undercover for like eight years, and then he pretty much loses his head and acts like a total dipshit making everyone suspicious immediately. I get that now he actually has to participate, but...dude, you're gonna get everyone killed with this. I think it would have been better if he'd held it together more in public and then kept his freak-outs behind doors, because I feel like he's just totally sinking his whole op, and it made the story less enjoyable to me. Unless that becomes a plot point later I suppose...
The ending...meh. Not really a cliffhanger. I don't know if I'll keep going, I hadn't realized it was the first in a series and was hoping to see it all come together rather than...not.
Overall, potential but lost in the weeds.
I also have to note: the Harry Potter analogy thing? My skeleton tried to escape my body.
Carter: lets watch Harry Potter! :):)
Nate: i never seen harry potter and have failed to pick up on any references to it ever >:
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Nate: wow snape is sure an obvious bad guy look at him looking all Bad Guy
Carter: just because he looks like a bad guy doesnt mean he is :) :);)
pleasseeeeee no
to abuse the metaphor, this makes Carter as Harry, Nate as Snape, and Maison as Dumbledore and therefore Nate will kill Maison. it's only facts, i don't make the rules
Unfortunately, the book lost itself along the way. I felt like it stalled out in the Master/slave phase for far too long, while neglecting any background plot. The set up of having Nate undercover, trying to bring down the whole trafficking ring is such a good plot, and I would have liked to see more of that intertwined with the Carter scenes. Instead, it felt like they were bookends - the book starts with the traffickers because Carter needs to get bought, and then ends with the next little bit of forward plot movement, with only a little segment (Henley) in the middle. The Master/slave parts didn't really advance much either - it felt repetitive over time. I also thought it was interesting how Nate tries to be kind to Carter in private but then that kind of just ends up being an extra mindfuck for him.
I can get behind Carter and Stockholm syndrome love, but I have no idea why Nate thinks he's in love with Carter. The best I can do is that he sees Carter as like a life raft/wholesome/keeps him out of the darkness etc. (That was never indicated in the book, it's just my thought.)
I also felt that Nate went a bit into TSTL territory over Carter. He's been undercover for like eight years, and then he pretty much loses his head and acts like a total dipshit making everyone suspicious immediately. I get that now he actually has to participate, but...dude, you're gonna get everyone killed with this. I think it would have been better if he'd held it together more in public and then kept his freak-outs behind doors, because I feel like he's just totally sinking his whole op, and it made the story less enjoyable to me. Unless that becomes a plot point later I suppose...
The ending...meh. Not really a cliffhanger. I don't know if I'll keep going, I hadn't realized it was the first in a series and was hoping to see it all come together rather than...not.
Overall, potential but lost in the weeds.
I also have to note: the Harry Potter analogy thing? My skeleton tried to escape my body.
Carter: lets watch Harry Potter! :):)
Nate: i never seen harry potter and have failed to pick up on any references to it ever >:
---
Nate: wow snape is sure an obvious bad guy look at him looking all Bad Guy
Carter: just because he looks like a bad guy doesnt mean he is :) :);)
pleasseeeeee no
to abuse the metaphor, this makes Carter as Harry, Nate as Snape, and Maison as Dumbledore and therefore Nate will kill Maison. it's only facts, i don't make the rules
November 29, 2021
I don't know who my heart breaks for more, the innocent boy getting raped and beaten just for the fact that he had familial ties to someone or the man raping and beating the only person he's ever loved just to save everyone else.
I kinda understood where Carter was coming from in the end there though. I mean, everyone else only ever broke their slaves' bodies but Nathan, while he didn't know it nor intending to was breaking Carter's mind too.
Wow does this book give a whole new meaning to that phrase. I wish I could drink this book away and out of memory.
“Heroes don’t rape the boys they love.”
I kinda understood where Carter was coming from in the end there though. I mean, everyone else only ever broke their slaves' bodies but Nathan, while he didn't know it nor intending to was breaking Carter's mind too.
"Without you I am nothing."
Wow does this book give a whole new meaning to that phrase. I wish I could drink this book away and out of memory.
June 20, 2021
I want to read a thousand books made by this author.
I want, no, I NEED the second book of this.
Beware the triggers (although it gets a bit mushy mushy here and there with the feelings) and, the author doesn’t warn about it, but it ends on a god damn cliffhanger (which is the only reason I am giving it 4 stars instead of 5. I hate cliffhangers with a passion, specially when I am not warned about them)
I want, no, I NEED the second book of this.
Beware the triggers (although it gets a bit mushy mushy here and there with the feelings) and, the author doesn’t warn about it, but it ends on a god damn cliffhanger (which is the only reason I am giving it 4 stars instead of 5. I hate cliffhangers with a passion, specially when I am not warned about them)
May 11, 2024
RTC but this was fucking nuts
August 20, 2024
SICK. DISGUSTING. VILE.
July 10, 2021
4.5 stars
I first found this book disturbing, especially the beginning. It’s a long book but it kept my attention which is hard to do lately. It is a dark book as it deals with human trafficking and there is on page rape in the book. It’s sort of a twisted tale because Nathan is undercover for 8 years waiting for the right time to bring down the major players in this trafficking ring. Carter is taken because his brother, who was also undercover, is found out and to make him pay they kidnap Carter. Nathan must buy Carter and keep him in the dark about knowing that he’s actually a “good guy”. He really isn’t all that good since he must rape Carter and use him as a slave in front of others.
This won’t be a book for everyone. There’s a love story of sorts forming between Nathan and Carter but they are not fully themselves at all so I don’t know how the author will pull this off. How will Carter react when he finds out who Nathan truly is and what his brother made him do to keep the operation going. I liked the parts when it was just Nathan and Carter alone and there’s a tension when Nathan is among his men or others in the trafficking world.
Carter cried. A lot. Because of his situation it didn’t annoy me but it was a constant cryfest for him. I think the book was a bit too long. There are repetitive scenes that could have been cut out.
This is supposed to be the first in a 3 part series so this ends on a cliffhanger of sorts. I don’t know when the next book is expected but I do hope it’s good!
I first found this book disturbing, especially the beginning. It’s a long book but it kept my attention which is hard to do lately. It is a dark book as it deals with human trafficking and there is on page rape in the book. It’s sort of a twisted tale because Nathan is undercover for 8 years waiting for the right time to bring down the major players in this trafficking ring. Carter is taken because his brother, who was also undercover, is found out and to make him pay they kidnap Carter. Nathan must buy Carter and keep him in the dark about knowing that he’s actually a “good guy”. He really isn’t all that good since he must rape Carter and use him as a slave in front of others.
This won’t be a book for everyone. There’s a love story of sorts forming between Nathan and Carter but they are not fully themselves at all so I don’t know how the author will pull this off. How will Carter react when he finds out who Nathan truly is and what his brother made him do to keep the operation going. I liked the parts when it was just Nathan and Carter alone and there’s a tension when Nathan is among his men or others in the trafficking world.
Carter cried. A lot. Because of his situation it didn’t annoy me but it was a constant cryfest for him. I think the book was a bit too long. There are repetitive scenes that could have been cut out.
This is supposed to be the first in a 3 part series so this ends on a cliffhanger of sorts. I don’t know when the next book is expected but I do hope it’s good!
December 15, 2023
Dec 2023: Re-read 2.5 years later and it’s gone from a 4 to a 2 star book!!! What was I thinking?!? The self-loathing, the self-pity and the same rhetoric throughout- it really wasn’t as great as I remember At All!! I’m hoping that number 2 will be amazing- hmmm, let’s see.
June 2021: Hmmmm, as I finish this book my first thought isn’t to give it a 5 star rating, or to slate it either. It’s just kind of- ‘hmmmm’.
Eloquent, I know!
But nobody likes a cliffhanger and there is little resolution from the last part of the book.
It was dark, enjoyable, frustrating for the characters, a twisted love story and lastly, well-written but I wasn’t bowled over by it.
I enjoy a ‘dark’ storyline and it wasn’t too much for me. I would advise anyone looking to read it to *not read the blurb first, *understand that there’s a cliffhanger and *ensure that they’re not triggered by rape, slavery or humiliation before they start it.
It was KU which is super duper and certainly enjoyable, I’m in two minds as to weither I’ll read number 2. At the mo it’s probably a 70% to Yes.
Let me know what you think.....
June 2021: Hmmmm, as I finish this book my first thought isn’t to give it a 5 star rating, or to slate it either. It’s just kind of- ‘hmmmm’.
Eloquent, I know!
But nobody likes a cliffhanger and there is little resolution from the last part of the book.
It was dark, enjoyable, frustrating for the characters, a twisted love story and lastly, well-written but I wasn’t bowled over by it.
I enjoy a ‘dark’ storyline and it wasn’t too much for me. I would advise anyone looking to read it to *not read the blurb first, *understand that there’s a cliffhanger and *ensure that they’re not triggered by rape, slavery or humiliation before they start it.
It was KU which is super duper and certainly enjoyable, I’m in two minds as to weither I’ll read number 2. At the mo it’s probably a 70% to Yes.
Let me know what you think.....
July 6, 2021
You know how you sometimes pick up a book that has a heap of trigger warnings but then you read it and it kind of falls flat? Yeh, that's not this book. Read every warning the author has written because they all come to life in very sick, twisted, cruel ways. I absolutely loved it! I'm not even gonna contemplate what that says about me as a person but I was sucked into the story form page 1.
This is my first read from this author and I will definitely look out for other books from them. The story was so beautifully written that, just like Carter, I was falling for the monster.
This is my first read from this author and I will definitely look out for other books from them. The story was so beautifully written that, just like Carter, I was falling for the monster.
June 15, 2021
I usually enjoy dark romances, but this one was too brutal for me, or maybe because sex trafficking is a very sensitive subject, and I just couldn't really enjoy it despite knowing that's it's just fiction, but sex trafficking is very real, and millions of people are being kidnapped and trafficked every single day. I can't.
August 9, 2021
I was so blown away that I finished this novel in one sitting. I was so blown away that I wanted more.from These Monstrous Deeds' author, TJ Hamel, only to be disappointed that there's only one so far. TJ Hamel is amongst my favorite authors now. All due to the incredible story of this novel.
July 29, 2024
Carter has been kidnapped. And he has no fucking idea what to do. Thanks a lot Tumblr.
Holy motherfuck! This book throws you into the deep end of a human trafficking years long undercover operation and it literally never lets up.
Nathan (aka Travis) has been undercover for years as a powerful man in the human trafficking world. He’s so close to having everything in place to take these fuckers down when his best pal and coworker gets his cover blown and said pal’s younger brother gets kidnapped. Maison knows that Nathan is his brother’s only hope so Nathan is told to buy him. HOWEVER Maison knows that his brother is a shit liar and he’s not confident that Carter can play the role of slave believably if he knows the truth so Nathan is ordered to lie to the boy.
This book is full of rape and abuse in public, and then tender words and touches in private. Some mind break. Conflicting emotions. DRAMA. Falling in love with your abuser. GUILT. Ugh. It’s just so much and so well written that I couldn’t put it down and I’m immediately starting book 2!
Holy motherfuck! This book throws you into the deep end of a human trafficking years long undercover operation and it literally never lets up.
Nathan (aka Travis) has been undercover for years as a powerful man in the human trafficking world. He’s so close to having everything in place to take these fuckers down when his best pal and coworker gets his cover blown and said pal’s younger brother gets kidnapped. Maison knows that Nathan is his brother’s only hope so Nathan is told to buy him. HOWEVER Maison knows that his brother is a shit liar and he’s not confident that Carter can play the role of slave believably if he knows the truth so Nathan is ordered to lie to the boy.
This book is full of rape and abuse in public, and then tender words and touches in private. Some mind break. Conflicting emotions. DRAMA. Falling in love with your abuser. GUILT. Ugh. It’s just so much and so well written that I couldn’t put it down and I’m immediately starting book 2!
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