Love, Ally Quotes

“Coming back to reality, I have the urge to go for a run. Even fresh from practice, I can’t stand to sit still. I know I won’t outrun the memory of her, but I can sure as hell try. The thing is, I’m not just running from her; I’m running from everything. I’m not ready to feel anything. My whole life, I’ve done my best to keep my mind so busy that it doesn’t have a second to feel anything from the past.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“I don’t know what the next few days, weeks or months will hold. But I know I’ll be here, by his side, through it all. They say love makes you do crazy things. Well, I’d have to disagree. Cole’s love, though it might make me act insane at times, has calmed my soul. Bringing me to a place of self-acceptance and security. I only hope that I can bring that to him too.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“He can’t fix me. I know that. Nothing can besides time. But he is my person. And if anyone is going to walk next to me through the darkness of hell and make it less painful, it’s him. This beautiful, selfless, damaged boy that I have grown to love so damn much.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“You’re already mine, Ally.” And I know he means the words he’s saying. He always says I belong to him, but I know he belongs to me too. Mind, body, and soul. “All yours. Forever yours.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“But I need to be strong right now—for her. This isn’t about me or my anger or vengeance. I need to just take care of my girl. “I’m s-sorry I didn’t tell you sooner. I was-wasn’t ready.” She stops and takes a breath. “I knew if I looked into your eyes, I’d want to tell you every-everything, and I was to-too scared to do that. Scared for you and for me.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“I know all of his secrets, and now, he knows all of mine. I know how much pain he holds inside of him. I want to help him through his, just like he has done for me. It truly is us against the world.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“You know me better than I know myself. When I hurt, you hurt. When I’m happy, you’re happy. We live to keep each other alive, Ally. And we also live in each other’s sorrows. If that isn’t the realest, rawest form of love, I don’t know what is. Because I promise you, baby, I’d take a hundred hard days with you over a thousand perfect days with anybody else.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“I’ve always said you belong to me and that you’re mine. But I hope you know that I belong to you too. Every single part of me does. And that’s how I want it to be for the rest of our lives—and all of the other lives we’re granted.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“Being apart isn’t meant for us. Could we do it? Sure. But why should we have to? We spent the first twelve years of our lives separated and were ripped apart all those years ago. I don’t ever want to be apart from her. Next to my side is where she belongs. It’s where she’s always belonged.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“Looking at Ally, I know she’s all I will ever need. In the good and in the grit, she’ll be here. Always.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“That it does,” I agree. “If there wasn’t pain, would we appreciate the good moments as much? Would times like this feel as significant if it was all rainbows, all the time?” Somehow, I don’t think so. I think pain is there for a reason. We need it to exist.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“was twelve, it felt like I’d found my beginning. Like I could finally breathe without pain. But now? Well, now, I know that when it comes to Ally, she’s my beginning, my middle, and my end. She’s where my life began and where it will end. She’s my forever and always.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“I told you our story wasn’t pretty. But I wouldn’t trade this story for anyone else’s. Because … it’s ours. And our story, flawed and gritty as it might be, is so much more than I could have ever imagined. It’s perfectly imperfect. And perfectly us.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“Ally, I’ve loved you since I was twelve years old. And even before then, I knew you were a part of me. I could live a million different lives, and I’m willing to bet money that I’d find my way to you in each and every one of them.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“Thank you for being my favorite person in the entire world. Forever and always. In the good and in the grit. Love, Ally xo”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“How can she trust my words? My words are completely invalidated because I did leave and she did get hurt. All for what? A fucking football camp? None of that matters. Not when it comes to her. She should have mattered more than the game did.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“hope one day to see you. I hope one day to feel your lips on mine and your arms wrapped around my body. I hope one day to laugh so hard that I almost pee my pants again from one of your stupid-ass jokes. I hope to watch you play football from the stands, wearing your name and jersey number on my back and screaming way too loud. And I hope one day to sing for you again. I hope for all of those things so damn much.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“Because, Cole, your future is so damn bright. So much brighter than this shithole town has so far granted you. Promise me you’ll chase your dreams but never let them make your life any less than wonderful. If you find yourself too overwhelmed with the pressure of the game or your needs are not being fulfilled, please take a step back. Just find happiness, and the rest will follow.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“Promise me something, Cole. Promise me you’ll always stay optimistic. Promise me you’ll continue to see the good in the world, even when you have every reason not to. Promise me you’ll think of me often, but don’t let the memories of us dictate your future.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“One day, I hope to see you and explain it all. And to tell you what happened on this horrible day, a day where they are forcing me to pack my things and leave you. But for now, that isn’t a burden that I want you to carry. You don’t deserve to cart around such a heavy load after all you’ve been through on your own.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“You were the best days of my life. And my fondest memories are the ones I have of you and me.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“The birthdays that you made special, the times you held me when I needed to feel close to someone, and the storms we chased together, basking in them just to escape our shitty world for a while—those times were the best days of my life.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“Growing up, I never knew what it was like to be loved, and the feeling felt so foreign to me. Yet somehow, I knew that’s exactly what it was with you. So, thank you for showing me that I’m not unlovable after all because it turns out, the greatest human being on this earth has loved me with so much grace and patience. God knows I don’t always make it easy.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“I’ve also realized that the only home I’ve ever known is you, Cole. I’ve finally figured out that a home doesn’t always mean walls, a door, and a place to sleep at night. I know for me, it isn’t. To me, it is your familiar arms, your steady heartbeat against mine, your calming touch, and most importantly, your ability to love me.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“To my Storm. I’m sorry that you’ve returned home, only to find me no longer here. I’m so sorry that not only am I gone, but I also didn’t get a chance to even tell you good-bye. Please know that I did not leave because I wanted to. I hope you know that I’d never leave you if it was my choice. Today was a very bad day, and I only wish I could be in your arms right now. Only then would I know I was safe. All my time on this earth, you have been my only family and the only person who has ever loved me. We have had each other’s backs since the day we met, and with you around, I always know I am protected. Protected from my fear of being alone, protected from the nightmares of the past, and protected from the monsters that roam this earth.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“For the next hour, that’s all I do—I just hold her. I don’t speak; I don’t move. I just hold on to her so that she knows I’m here. So she knows I’m never letting go.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“I make my way to her bed. Lying down, I pull her against me. Which only makes her cry harder. Her petite body trembles against mine. “Shh …” I whisper against her hair. “I’m right here, baby. I’ve got you now.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“I know that she’s right. I have so many secrets I’m not ready to open up about. And I know me sabotaging us is just me avoiding him finding out what I’ve worked so hard to keep hidden. In my mind, if I keep the truth buried, I’ll never have to feel the effects of it. If it stays in the past, I can try to move on and forget it.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“Ally, he loves you; he wants you. You are the one who keeps finding excuses to run. You are the one pushing him away.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally

“As she turns to leave, I don’t have the urge to run after her. For once in my life, no matter how much it hurts me, I let her leave. I let my angel walk home alone … in the dark.”
― Hannah Gray, Love, Ally