This review will be completely spoiler free. I will just share my feelings on the book, but will not go into any sort of detail on what the book is about. You read the blurb, if not here it is.
They call me a slut. Maybe I am. Sometimes I do things I despise. Sometimes men take without asking.
But I have a musical gift, only a year left of high school, and a plan. With one obstacle.
Emeric Marceaux doesn’t just take. He seizes my willpower and bangs it like a dark note. When he commands me to play, I want to give him everything. I kneel for his punishments, tremble for his touch, and risk it all for our stolen moments.
He’s my obsession, my master, my music. And my teacher.
"They're dark and hypnotic, like your breaths and your heartbeats."
Sounds pretty HOT right? I've been waiting for a book like this for a very long time. I love forbidden romance books, I love the build up I get from those book, the innocent touches, the way the characters feel about each other, even though they shouldn't.
I love the way Pam built this book up, it was set up perfectly and gave me exactly what I wanted and needed in a book. She has a way with her writing that is almost poetic, I felt myself just let go reading away for hours and then realized that I had nothing else to read. But that being said, (I was one of the beta readers for this book, so I was given this book in sections till I finally got the whole thing, Pam can be evil like that.) :)
Like life has handed me a song filled with soul-deep joy and told me to savor every note. Because eventually, the song will end.
Pam has not limits to writing, I have noticed that now in the last couple of her books. She is fucking genius for sure, I have known this since I met her. But her writing, it fucking pulls you in and you won't stop until you finish the book, and even after that I am still stuck on this book. Major book hanger for sure! It has been a while since I read a book that drew me in the way this one did.
The characters are amazing, they fit perfectly together! As you know this is a student teacher romance, and it isn't like any student teacher romance I have read. This one has such passion in every single page, you feel EVERY single thing just as they do. Its captivating. I am in AWE of Pam right now. I found everything I wanted in a book and more. I feel in love with these characters. It's just PERFECT! I applaud you, Pam you have created a freaking master piece and can not wait to see what the hell else you will be coming up with!
I am very happy to say, I was one of the beta readers for this book.
This is absolutely the best book I've read this year. it crushed me down to my soul and heart. It torn me into pieces and I kept wanting more. It's amThis is absolutely the best book I've read this year. it crushed me down to my soul and heart. It torn me into pieces and I kept wanting more. It's amazing. I couldn't have asked for a better book. This author did an outstanding job writing this and it shows the depth and emotion she put into this. I loved every single word. my heart is all over the place right now.
This book blew my mind. I am not even sure how to express how much this book tore me apart. It fucked my world up let me put it like that. I loved the authors book, How to Kill a Rock Star. I knew starting this book that I should not take this story likely. I knew what would happen. It was just a given. It is read out and expressed to you many times through out the book. How could I not, NOT want to read it.
This author is a magical writer. Nothing paranormal or anything like that. It's more poetic that is for sure. She captures the characters in a magical way and the love they have for each other is internal. True love, soul mates type of shit. And I felt that to my gut. I knew these two are one of a fucking kind and I am glad they shared their experience with me. The bond these two have makes the love that I know just love. This type of love they have is that one truly once in a lifetime experience. Their made for each other. That's what made this book too. The characters were the most brilliant fucking characters I have read in a long time. There is not a single type of character like, Jacob and Trixie.
“You try and act so tough, you think you're so damn hopeless and godless and faithless, but you don't fool me. People without hope aren't tormented by the world the way you are. People without hope don't give a shit. but I see it in you, in the way you look at things, even in the way you look at me sometimes, like I'm the coolest fucking guy in the universe, and I know it's in there. Reverence. Belief. Something. You have a lot more faith than you own up to. You just don't want to be let down. But I'm not going to let you down again. Not if I can help it.”
It breaks my fucking heart into little pieces and wanted to throw my kindle across the highway (since I was riding in car), I really had it planned in my mind, I was going to roll down my window and say FUCK YOU WORLD!!! I am still thinking about it while I am laying here in the hotel room bed. If I could open the window I would just throw it out the window and hope the fucking buss station across the street hits my kindle and drags little pieces of it all the way to California.
I don't know how I am going to get over this book. I don't think I can. It has left it's imprint in my heart and soul. Its the type of book that leave its mark and I will keep thinking about it over and over for next...forever.... I am seriously getting fucking teary eye just thinking about this book and looking through my clippings for quotes I want to use.
I kind of want to lock this book away so no one can have the same type of feelings I have for these characters. I want to keep them for my self. But, then again I want to share my experience with anyone who can handle this type of book. Someone who can appreciate the type of beautiful writing you will get in this book. Enjoy the words flowing into something so beautiful that it will grow and make you think there is nothing better then this right now. Its a wonderful feeling and I thank this author for creating something so perfect.
“Thoughts are king, Trixie, king!”
Were their flaws? Hell yes. But those didn't matter to me after I read this. It wasn't the type of flaws that made me want to lower the book rating or anything. There was angst, punching bitches in the face moments. Fuck I need a snickers right now... My heart hurts. In a good way and in a broken in little pieces way. But it doesn't matter because there is a man called, Jacob in this book. And, Jacob deserves fucking everything in this goddamn world.... He's my everything right now.
“If your intentions are pure, I'm seeking a friend for the end of the world.”
OMG what did I just read… Why isn't everyone reading this right now??? When I needed something to read I figured I would give this a try. I
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OMG what did I just read… Why isn't everyone reading this right now??? When I needed something to read I figured I would give this a try. I heard the h was very OCD and I just love those books. I love reading some twisted shit even if it has to be OCD.
There are so many things I loved about this book. It had the perfect balanced in between scene’s that did not make it boring or make me want to stop reading at all. There is some M/M scenes in the book that were OMG I am dripping down my leg good.
I LOVE Liberty. She is that type of character that I wanted to run to safety but also that type of character that I just wanted to seat back and see what next fucked up thing she was going to do. She was kind of like a roller coaster that I just sat there with popcorn watching and waiting for her next fucked up blow out OCD obsession. Liberty is damaged. But not damaged good. It’s just the little things and when it comes to those and her mind it’s pretty much no stopping.
Mason, he is the perfect husband. He loved Liberty more than anything. And you can tell how much he loves her. Their marriage looks perfect on the outside but on the inside it is very rehearsed.
This is the part that totally had me spinning over this book and made me love it even more! Sean. Sean, made this book work between Mason and Liberty. When the 3 of them get together there is a form of connection between them 3. And it’s not just m/f. There is m/f/m, m/m/f. It’s all over the place and I loved every bit of it.
I wish more people would read this book and appreciate it for what it is. This is a very lovely story that is kept very close to me now. I would be reading it again.
I got this book recommended to me from a friend, the lovely Miss actually. Read the blurb and got it right then and thought I would read it one day soon. Well, I started it today and finished it the same day. I needed something dark, I mean really dark, and I heard it's fucking dark. It lived up to every fucking darkness I had in me at the moment and went beyond that.
This book is for sure not for the faint of heart. This is not a romance book, there is no rainbows coming to you at anytime. This book is fucking dark, horror, thriller. It will not leave you with a happy feeling at all. It's so fucked up that I feel like I should take a couple of days off, and just think what I want to do with my life. But no I want to jump right in an write my review. I needed to write it while it's fresh. Just saying fresh is eating at me right now. UGH. I hate the word fresh already.
Okay.... This book starts off with the abduction right off the bat. Nicole is a mother, and a wife, she is kidnapped and taken to a home. His name is Ron. Ron well seems kind of, I don't really know at first. He just seemed okay lets make some sandwiches and talk type of kidnapper. I thought there was something wrong with the guy but who knows. I didn't even know what I was in for at all. Ron, is keeping Nicole there because he wants to write a book since his last one pretty much ate shit. He wants to write a best selling book. Instead of writing fiction he wants to write true shit that is happening right now. And guess what? Nicole, is the main character. Yep..
Ron is a psychopath. Simple at that. I thought so within the first 30 minutes while reading it. This mother fucker is off his rocker. I can't express that enough. There were times where I was laughing my ass off with some of the shit that, Ron was saying. It's that crazy. But then it turned into a different ball game when Ron just started going fucking crazier. I was afraid for my life while reading this book.
Nicole I must admit. She is a wonderful character. She never once broke. Never did she just give up. There was always fighting with her but she picked her battles and at some cases they probably weren't the best choice but I get it.
I had to at least stop reading once just to gather my self. It just kept getting worse. So fucking worse that I didn't even know the outcome of it. Blow after blow it just kept eating at me. I could not stop reading though. I so want to read something fluffy but I don't think I can do it. I want to read the sequel bad. I feel like a piece of me just wants something light right now to get my sanity back on track but, the other part of me is like, it's far gone right now mid as well lose the rest of it.
This book is very graphic. If you cannot handle gore type of shit or your stomach is weak for some very graphic scenes then, this might be your cup of tea. I thought at one point that this has push my limits but nope, I guess I need more punishment cause looks like I just got the second book and getting ready to start it tomorrow....
This book is amazing though. Out of all that I have said it is amazing. The writing captured me from the beginning and didn't let me go even after the end. The author has a real craft at writing a mind blowing dark, horror, thriller that kept me handcuffed at the end of my seat never letting me lose again... It's that good and fucked up. If you think you can handle a book like this then I would highly recommend it.
Gray like his eyes, the perfect blend of light and dark.
This book takes place after Deliver. But you do not need to read Deliver to read Vanquish. It is a standalone but honestly I would definitely read Deliver anyway just because it is such a good book even though this can be read as a standalone as well.
My Favorite book yet my the lovely Oyster Pam Godwin. I don’t know how she does it. After each book I read by her I tell myself, yep this one is my favorite.
Van is so fucking sexy. GOD I LOVE HIM. He’s fucked up, twisted but really unique. There is not a character out there that can lay a hand on Van, in my eyes. But the best part is that you get his POV FINALLY!!! I've always wondered what it would be like in Van’s head and it’s a beautiful sight A beautiful sight indeed.
This is a duel POV. Which brings me to the Amber.
Amber is off her fucking rocker lets me just throw that out there. Amber, seems broken beyond repair. Amber suffers from agoraphobia and OCD. Amber is funny, brave, smart, weak, breakable, and I love all of those things about her because it makes her who she is. There were times when I felt so bad for her, her agoraphobia is a huge part of her life as well as her OCD, but at times I just laughed at how fucked up she really is and the things she does. She's out there but so lovable at the same time. Am I jealous of her right now? Fuck yes I am.
The sex was unbelievable that will make your panties wet for sure. Be sure to have an extra pair and, a finger or two. :) Just saying be prepared. I believe I might have a slight obsession over Van, and I am not sure it will be going away anytime soon if ever. He completes me. ♥
Between Van and Amber they are perfect for each other. They both have fucked up past, they are each fighting their own demons. But, when you bring both of them together they complete each other perfectly. They have a strong bond and get each other. No one has ever Van the way Amber does and accepts him for the fucked up, twisted mother fucker that he is. Just melts my heart.
While reading Vanquish, there was a time when all my feelings I felt for Deliver, came out during reading this and it made me stop reading just to think back at Deliver, and I just smiled. That book was amazing and when reading this one it make me appreciate both books that much more.
Pam, did a wonderful job on writing these two characters. The depth that Pam, went into this book that made me never feel there there was a duel moment, the pace is perfectly balance, but there is only one thing she did wrong. I wanted more!!!! My god, I wanted more.
This is not a dark erotica. This is more of a psychological romance.
“Loving another person always means opening yourself up for hurt”
There is always those type of books that you look at or read the blur
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“Loving another person always means opening yourself up for hurt”
There is always those type of books that you look at or read the blurb and think maybe one day I will get to this. I felt that way about this book. I have owned it for a while, and it just never really popped out to me that I needed to read it. I have had it recommended to me several times, but finally my bestie told me, this has to be your next read. I finally broke down and said fine I will read it. This is my first read by this author. I never read the other books and wasn't sure if it was a series or what. But, was told that it can be read as a standalone. Right now I want to just go on Amazon and buy all her books, but I am afraid. This book puts others books in very high standards right now even this authors books.
I figured I would just read a little bit and go to bed last night. That was at 11 pm when I finally laid in bed reading it. I stayed up till around 3ish am, not wanting to stop reading. But damn the clock kept fucking me with. It’s either sleep now and get up in 3 hours for work, or keep reading till I can’t and just work with no sleep.. That was a hard decision so I said one more chapter, one more chapter till I finally said shit I have to go to sleep. I didn't want to. Once I woke up I felt like death but, it was way worth it. I’m glad I did it because as soon as I woke up and got to work I just read my little fucking heart out till I finished it.
It touched me very close to my heart. I don’t know why though. The writing was beautifully written and the characters oh my god I could just cry, smile, laugh, jump up in down from excitement, from thinking about the characters in this book. I wasn't sure what to expect but I got way more than I could ask for. It had everything I wanted and more.. There is almost no words for it. It was beautiful. Absolutely beautiful.
“Try to believe that maybe more light shines out of those who have the most cracks.”
Archer, my heart melts all over for him. He is fucking amazing. I want to crawl up on him like a spider monkey and never let go.. Why can’t I have my own, Archer? Real life is such a downy sometimes. I am seating here and thinking shit, what do I do now? I have no clue what to do with myself right now but write all my feelings down before they start either going crazy with my obsession of Archer, or I just crawl myself in a hole and beg the author to write me another, Archer book…..
I had to stop writing this review just to wrap my arms around myself for the way I am feeling in my heart. It has been lifted up in awe of, Archer. He is the perfect fucking man on this earth to me right now. Apparently I’m a book whore. I am in love with so many men it’s unreal. And, Archer has made it to the top 3 maybe 2. Shit I can’t even picture my list right now because of him and for sure without him. Archer is the list. He is damaged soul. Broken that seems almost unrepairable but he is. It’s heart breaking on how much I felt the impact of this book while reading it. I felt every single feeling Archer was feeling. I wanted to cry for him, I wanted to fight for him, wanted to take him home with me so bad.. I have it bad.
Bree, she is the perfect women for, Archer. I couldn't ask for a better character to have all of his love he has to give to her. I approve.
“I'm here for you. I'm here because of you. I'm here because you saw me, not just with your eyes, but with your heart. I'm here because you wanted to know what I had to say and because you were right...everyone does need friends.”
How can you not fall in love with this!!! I just can’t express enough how much I loved this book.
This is a short book. I was surprised how short it was. I wish it would have been longer cause, I felt kind of rush in it. But, then again I did get This is a short book. I was surprised how short it was. I wish it would have been longer cause, I felt kind of rush in it. But, then again I did get about 4 different POV's. I usually don't mind the multiple POV's unless, I feel there was no need from them, and honestly I see 2 POV's that I feel do not need to be there.
I am not going to go into the whole story since it is short and that would just pretty much just tell you the whole thing. I will say that Aaron has been sold/abducted. Vincent is a evil man who probably needs his head cut off. But I like him. Is it wrong for me to like the guy that is horrible and evil in this book? Probably but I don't care. I seem to always go for the BAD guys. And Vince is pretty bad I might say so.
Warning though- This book contains rape, drug addiction, gang rape, abuse.
I did find some errors in the writing but not something that would make me want to lower my rating for. I do know that this book hooked me. There is a second book already out which I will be starting once I finish this review. This book is really good. I enjoyed it that's for sure. It is dark, twisted, fucked up. It can get pretty brutal which I was totally fine with. I had no issues regarding that but like I said in the warning above not for the faint of heart.
The end though. I did have an issue with the end. I felt it was cheesy. I didn't like the end. It's hard to express without giving anything away so do not click spoiler unless you have read the book. (view spoiler)[ I don't like Sebastian nor Eric. I feel that there is no point for them to be in the book at all. I know this is totally fucked up on my part but I wish the beginning with Sebastian was the only part of him in the book and left it as that. I like Vince, I want Vince to come through for me and I want him to end up taking Aaron like how I want him too. But Sebastian and Eric are fucking up with my game plan I have in my mind. (hide spoiler)] Ya... I am not sure what is going to happen in the next book. There are about 3 maybe 4 ways I can see it ending but who knows.
This is not a typical m/m romance. This is on the bit of the dark side for sure. And you know me w 5 heart breaking, gut-wrenching, beautiful stars.
This is not a typical m/m romance. This is on the bit of the dark side for sure. And you know me when it comes to my dark book I have to read them. I was really intrigued since it was a m/m also. I haven't read a m/m dark book yet. This is a first for me and will not be the last. Something about this book drew me too it and I bought it right away and started it that very night. When a title like The Darker Side of Trey Grey pops out, it catches my attention and I am very glad I picked it up.
As I was saying this is not your typical m/m romance in anyway shape or form. Warning though this book includes Rape, Child Molestation, prostitution, among other things. Does it get pretty graphic? I would like to say at some parts yes it does. Did it make me want to stop reading it, hell no. When Trey Grey comes into a story he captures my entire attention on every page. He is very hard not to read even though 90% of the time I just wanted to hold him down and hug him to wash out all of his worries.
I really, really, love this book deeply down to my breaking heart.
Trey Grey, how do I even start to put this boy into words. Trey, he is a prostitute, this is all he knows. He is also a college student that suffers from severely OCD. He has been sexual abused since he was a kid. Has been prostituted out as a young boy by the very person who should be caring for him. Trey is so broken almost beyond repair. Almost! He is the one that breaks my heart through out he entire story while reading this. You just hurt for everything that he has ever been through.
It's so hard not to fall in love with Trey. Living his life day by day with nightmare, reminders, OCD freak outs. It is almost like what else can happen to his poor guy. *HUGS TREY*
One day at a restaurant he meets Justin. Trey feels a attraction for Justin but nothing serious at first. He has never been close to anyone and you can blame him for feeling this way. Trey and Justin head over to a house party and hit it off pretty well I might say so myself.
Not only does Trey have his own demons battling him every single day, so does Justin. Justin has his own battles, history, mental illness. These two are so fucked up that they are perfect for each other really. It seems like they are just a disaster waiting to explode and trust me it does. The things they both go through to be together is unreal. I really does make me what to hug them both tightly and fight off all their battles for them.
Given these two characters they are perfect in their own way and makes me love them even more. God, I love this book. The author did a amazing job writing this book. This is in Trey's POV only. There will be a sequel from what I seen on the authors page suppose to be released this year. Fingers cross.
After reading this book I am anxiously waiting for what is to come with Trey and Justin. I need to know what is going to happen next. There are so many things that were left unanswered, so many details that I need to know and find out. I just have to have the next book. So, yes I will be stalking the authors blog waiting to see what she is going to do with these two. It's fucking hard seating here thinking about it when I need the damn book now. UGH! That is a good UGH. I just want the next book. I would highly recommend this to those that like m/m and like it on the dark side.
I love when a book surprises me. I love the feeling from not have no expectations at all, not knowing where a Amazing, addicted, outstanding stars.
I love when a book surprises me. I love the feeling from not have no expectations at all, not knowing where a book is going to take me. It kind of just sneaks up on me in a good way, and it stays there because of that. This book did this to me. I was not expecting anything. I just seen it on NetGalley and the cover brought me to click on it. Once I read what it was about I was like okay, this sound okay and different, I will give it ago one day. I also not expecting to pick it up and read it that quickly. I was going through my Kindle looking for a book to read while I work on and off on my blog relaunch. I just read the first page to see if this would be something I can read between working on my blog. I am really not sure how it happened. It just stuck to me and next thing you know I seating at my computer getting ready to work on my blog and I just don't want to. I wanted to read this book. I wanted to keep finding out what was going to happen. It fucking turned my world upside down. There was just something about the characters that made me feel a such a deep connection that I have not felt in a while. This is my favorite book I have read all year. This is probably in my top 5 favorite books. No scratch that whole thing. It's in my top 3!
When I love a book I want to express every single thing I have felt. I want to scream to every single person that they need to read this book. But, it will not be for everyone simply because that is how books work, they are not for every single person. This is one of my favorite books now, and I want you to read it, but you may also hate it. So, that is one thing that keeps me from screaming to everyone they need to read it. It's so hard to keep everything bottled up without yelling for everyone to listen to me and see my expression on my face right now. I am so happy but at any moment I still feel like I can ball my eyes out from this book. It's so perfect in every single thing that happened. You have two fucked up people who are addicts, one is Lily who is addicted to sex. And when I mean sex this chick is full blown addicted! Then there is my favorite man in the world right now Lo, he is addicted to liquor. He is an alcoholic, just like Lily he is full blown addicted to it. There is not oh I'm addicted lets sugarcoat this for you all. No this is in the mind of an addict.
The title says it all to me. I was addicted to this fucking book. It was simple as that. I was full blown addicted to this and could not put it down. I was like a fucking junkie who needed their fix, but my fix was reading this damn book. I didn't want it to end. From the beginning you are pretty much reading the lives of two friends who are both addicts and who have secrets and they both keep their secrets separate from everyone else. You are just living in their lives through every step of the way. Some might say there is not much going on in the beginning till shit starts happening. I would have to disagree, but that is just me. I wanted every single information that was thrown to me. I wanted anything I could get from both of these characters. You are in Lily's POV the whole time. I do wish there was some parts where I was in Lo's, head. I needed to know what he was thinking at certain times that it was killing me. This book is full of emotions through in and throughout it. Both authors did a fantastic job with this book. I could have no asked for anything better or anything more that keeps me wanting more. And yes I want more. I am so glad I can read 1.5 next, but fuck November 30th cannot get here soon enough for me to read the second book. I'm starting to feel overwhelmed with joy and sadness because I want to keep both of these characters locked up with me forever so no one can ever touch or hurt them. I love Lo so much that it hurts. I cannot believe it can hurt so bad to love a character so much but it does. Fuck I love him!!!
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