Mx. T *Chaotic Reader*'s Reviews > Sober Dope & Sundays

I've really tried to organise my thoughts because this take on addiction recovery has touched my little sober soul. It has taken me a few days after finishing it and I'm still not over how utterly hopeful and full of love and good weird feelings this book is. Recovery is most certainly not linear and not everyone makes it, but how Nordika Knight has managed to portray the ups and downs without making it some kind of torture porn or ott drama was healing for me. The way Gage explains his struggle and how he needs to find better ways to cope and live, to find a desire to cling to life in a positive healthy way is something all of us people in recovery know and strive for. How Alexei holds space for him to find them was brilliantly done. There's no magic cure relationship here, just someone to be there for Gage and to let him figure out what he needs without taking over. The support net Gage finds in his family and Nathan was beautiful too. I loved how Alexei had also someone to appreciate his weirdness and his anal retentive tendencies without attempting to change him.
Another take I loved was the sex/intimacy between these two. No rushing, not defining sex just by penetration, building up their feelings, the amount of consent and respect and gentleness. It was PERFECT.
Look, I don't want to spoil the whole book by telling you all the brilliant moments, but you need to read this, even if you haven't struggled with addiction or known anyone who does/did, this book talks about finding your way after being lost and finding a love that suits you. And I love it. Even more because we are portrayed as human beings beyond our struggles 💜💙