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383 pages, Kindle Edition
First published May 30, 2015
I don’t mind you having a past, but if I can’t have all of you...
“I want you Tony. But I want all of you. I deserve all of you. Not just the little part that you’re willing to give to me.” I want more than friendship."
“Life without pain, isn’t really living.”.
I’m a poor girl from a foster background with a dead, fucked-up druggie sister who had threatened his friends. I’m not good enough. I’ll never be good enough. It looks like he had perfect. I am nowhere near perfect.
Wiping her face, she realized that it was time to cut Tony loose. Time to let go of the idea of them together. Time to move on.
He wants me? Us together? Am I enough to help him? What if I agree and my heart gets broken? Can two people, who seem to be broken help each other become whole again?
“Sherrie, you’re the only woman I’ve ever been interested in since...Marla. I’ve tried so hard to not be attracted to you. To not want you. Hell, to not like you. But I’m tired of fighting the feelings I have.”
“Oh, no, darlin’. I want to see your eyes when I tell you exactly how it will be. What we did last night was no casual fuck for me and I thought you knew that. But seeing the doubt on your face right now, means I didn’t do a good job getting that across and that’s on me. So, I’ll set you straight right now. As far as I’m concerned, we’re now a couple. This weekend has shown me that I can be happy again. And I want to be happy again. And that happiness can only be with you.”
I love him so much Charisse. If you were here you’d be drooling over him and telling me to go for it. I just want something...something that’s all mine. I don’t mind that he has a past. I hurt for his loss, but I’m not jealous of his deceased wife. But Charisse, I want all of him. Not to be the shadow of what he had.
“I...I spent so much time after Marla and Sofia died thinking that that was it for me. I’d loved. I’d become a father. And I lost it all. One fuckin’ phone call and it was all gone. I wasn’t prepared to ever...feel again.”
“You and I loved good women. I got to have mine a helluva lot longer than yours. And I got to see my child become an adult. You got gypped out of both of those things. But son, that don’t mean your life is over. You can love again and that don’t take one goddamn thing away from what you and Marla had. You’re a good man with a lot of love to give, if you’ll just allow yourself to give it. It also means that you know a good thing when you find it.”(Tony's Dad to him)
“You were partially right at the cemetery. I did love Marla and when she and Sofia died, I died with them. I planned on staying single the rest of my life ’cause I figured I had loved once and something like that just can’t come along more than once in a lifetime. But I was wrong. I’ve been fighting my feelings for you since I first saw you and when we finally got together up in the mountains, I was willing to go all the way with you. Then it all got fucked up when you heard me say her name in my sleep. But baby, it wasn’t what you thought.”(...)“I had a dream that night and yes, Marla was in it. But baby, you have to believe me. She was letting me go, knowing that I was ready. As much as I had feelings for you, there was still the past holding me back. But that night, Sherrie babe, she told me to be happy with you.”(...)“Baby, you’re no replacement. I’ve loved and lost. But if I’m lucky enough to find love again, then I’m grabbing it for all it’s worth and hanging on.”“You...you’ve found love again?” she asked, her voice shaky.
A smile slowly curved his lips as he leaned in for a kiss. The soft touching of lips. The gentle promise of a future. “Yeah, Sherrie. I love you.” Touching her lips again, he leaned back saying, “Please tell me I’m not too late. Please say I still have a chance with you.”