Candy Quotes

“When you can stop you don't want to, and when you want to stop, you can't...”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“Once upon a time, there was Candy and Dan. Things were very hot that year. All the wax was melting in the trees. He would climb balconies, climb everywhere, do anything for her, oh Danny boy. Thousands of birds, the tiniest birds, adorned her hair. Everything was gold. One night the bed caught fire. He was handsome and a very good criminal. We lived on sunlight and chocolate bars. It was the afternoon of extravagant delight. Danny the daredevil. Candy went missing. The days last rays of sunshine cruise like sharks. I want to try it your way this time. You came into my life really fast and I liked it. We squelched in the mud of our joy. I was wet-thighed with surrender. Then there was a gap in things and the whole earth tilted. This is the business. This, is what we're after. With you inside me comes the hatch of death. And perhaps I'll simply never sleep again. The monster in the pool. We are a proper family now with cats and chickens and runner beans. Everywhere I looked. And sometimes I hate you. Friday -- I didn't mean that, mother of the blueness. Angel of the storm. Remember me in my opaqueness. You pointed at the sky, that one called Sirius or dog star, but on here on earth. Fly away sun. Ha ha fucking ha you are so funny Dan. A vase of flowers by the bed. My bare blue knees at dawn. These ruffled sheets and you are gone and I am going to. I broke your head on the back of the bed but the baby he died in the morning. I gave him a name. His name was Thomas. Poor little god. His heart pounds like a voodoo drum.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“When you think you are in love, you don't want to know about the things that could end it.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“Some people are attracted to sickness, to the kind of madness where sparks fly
off the head, to the incoherence of despair, masked by nervous energy, which winds up looking like bewildered joy.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“Comfort is beauty muted by heroin. Sadness is beauty drained by lack of it.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“And I come to realise that all my small todays, the way I act, will lead into my tomorrows.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“I am so far removed, from everything, that I can’t even cry. There’s a chasm between me, where I am, and the world I am in. The world I move my feet through. The atmosphere I breathe is like golden syrup, twenty-seven atmospheres thick. I’m wading through the world, consumed with … consumed. And I’m wading through the swamp that my body has become.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“I'm hurling all the little joys against the greater sadness. The sadness is a giant weight. It presses down. Its mean: "What's the point?”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“I can no longer cry. I groan a few times. Through the slits that are my eyes, I stare at my shoes, at the gray swirls of the concrete floor, at the bright orange lid of my syringe. And I realize—it’s a kind of horror—that this is my life.
And I can’t stop. I just can’t stop. I can’t stop anymore.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“Drought brings out the worst in us and it's easy to hate your fellow human beings.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“I try to tell myself I must accept certain private inevitabilities. I will live a life of continual deep fatigue, for example. I will carry in me, like a poison, like a virus, rancor for most things, and while this condition will not improve, nonetheless I will learn to live with my rancor as if it were a minor irritation. There will be many achievable things that I will not do and then there will come a time when I realize they are no longer even achievable.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“We were the coolest people in McDonald's. We had a lot going for us. We'd found the secret glue that held all things together. We were young and beautiful. We were married now. We were about to go home, get out of our monkey suits, get naked, and get wasted.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“If any signs were obvious, I think I must have buried them. Because when you think you are in love, you don’t want to know about the things that could end it.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“In the end, life can be seen to be inconsequential, in the way that nothing matters on some vast evolutionary scale. But everything matters, and we know the most when life seems most horrific, when at each instant of time, all the space around us is everything there is.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“But Murphy's Law in the world of heroin said that if things could get out of control, then of course they would.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“The beauty of our partnership was that we knew never to be surprised. Candy heard the urgency in my voice. She merely dropped her lipstick, started the car, and drove off quickly but calmly. This was what true love was. Implicit understanding.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“Like all junkies, I guess I'd thought for a long time that my environment was the problem. My situation. The people I knew.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“She wanted a reaction. As usual, I felt nothing but the desire not to have a confrontation.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“For every hundred-dollar cock in Candy's cunt, Candy needs a two-hundred-dollar jab in the arm. And I'm Prince Pimp, welcome to the show. I would vomit up my life if I could.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“It never ceased to amaze me how much I could hate the world when I wasn't stoned. It seemed such a hostile place. And yet, get a good blast in me, and my love for humanity was abundant.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“What was it about love? Coming down off heroin, it was so hard to think of anything but pain. When we were stoned, we loved each other, we touched each other, we laughed a lot, it was us against the world.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“There were good times and bad times, but in the beginning there were more good times. When I first met Candy: those were like the days of juice, when everything was bountiful. Only much later did it all start to seem like sugar and blood, blood and sugar, the endless dark heat.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“I had no particular purpose in mind, which was never a good way to do things.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“In the end, life can be seen to be inconsequential, in the way that nothing matters on some vast evolutionary scale. But everything matters, and we know that most when life seems most horrific, when at each instant of time, all the space around us is everything there is.”
― Luke Davies , Candy

“Late at night I think that if I could write a list of the things I like, I could somehow write my way out of the mess I'm in. I don't know how this works or even how it occurs to me that it might work. How the fuck could it work? Write a list. It's a bizarre thought. But what would I write? I like reading. I like movies, especially in the early hours, when the rest of the city is sleeping. I like the American football on TV, strange and beautiful sport from another planet. I like Candy, Candy's warmth, Candy's pussy, Candy's eyes, breasts, sense of humor, attitude, legs, voice, laugh... I like a lot of things about Candy. I like sex. The list I'm trying to write should not include the statement I like heroin, because that won't help.”
― Luke Davies, Candy

“I made a commitment to myself to try to keep out of trouble. I sincerely believed that this terrible momentum was a thing I could impose my will on, something that could be slowed down.”
― Luke Davies, Candy